here. in my head.

fuck my mom is making me going shopping with her to pick out a present for her boyfriend. fdsjkhfgsdhkjfdshjkfds

i don’t know what i want anymore. 

i hate that i’m completely bored with the guy i’m sorta seeing but not seeing. We haven’t even made it official yet and i want to not talk to him ever. Well maybe not ever, but i’m finding him to be really dull. 

i’ve met a bunch of his friends and they were so BORING that i found it hard to believe that such an interesting person could be associated with such lame people. Idk it made me lose interest even more. 

i’m also starting to not even be attracted to him anymore. :< Its really upsetting.

and i want to make this thing, whatever it is, work between him and i, but i don’t know where to go from here. :/ Where ever here is. 

my mind has been racing these past few days. I just can’t stop thinking about everything. 

relationship shit, dead relative shit, fucking mother demanding money from me, and fucking roommate bullshit. 

so i’ve pretty much been smoking pot so my mind will stop for once. its probably not the best thing to do since im just ignoring all this shit, but for now it works.

I just want all this bullshit to end. 

bigboss0715:

But it’s never too early for Tsukema Tsukeru.

my friend is trying to hook me up with this cute japanese boy.

We’re having a meeting at work tomorrow and i need to think of five reasons we’re not doing as well as the other hotels in the area. 

ugh. so annoying.

I have two so far… :/ 

modernshaman replied to your post: i was asked if i was part black today because i…

what the fuck?

yeah i have no idea what they were thinking. lmfao. 

i was asked if i was part black today because i listen to music with lots of drum and bass.